Kelly Childs and Pandemic madness- how to deal with it and keep cool

My guest is Kelly Childs, wife, owner of the famous Kelly’s Bake Shoppe, social media goddess and business guru. We talk about the strains and solutions of being locked-down and how to rewrite your life and emerge a new-you.

Kelly Childs and Pandemic madness- how to deal with it and keep cool

My guest is Kelly Childs, wife, owner of the famous Kelly’s Bake Shoppe, social media goddess and business guru. We talk about the strains and solutions of being locked-down and how to rewrite your life and emerge a new-you.

Kelly Childs and Pandemic madness- how to deal with it and keep cool

My guest is Kelly Childs, wife, owner of the famous Kelly’s Bake Shoppe, social media goddess and business guru. We talk about the strains and solutions of being locked-down and how to rewrite your life and emerge a new-you.

The Real Virus is going to Wake-You-Up

There is something much bigger than the Coronavirus going on and its about to blow your mind in ways the world has never experienced before. This is the most incredible time to live on the history of the planet and we are in the middle of the greatest fight between good And Evil, right now, EVER! Brace yourself, it’s going to be very difficult weeks ahead and you may not be able to process some of it. We are going to emerge like a butterfly from the womb into the Grand Awakening. Are you ready to Wake-UP!

Ken & Brian Gillespie talk about survival in this crazy world.

What’s going on in todays world? How do we manage to keep it together and actually thrive? Ken & Brian hit on the things that we are fearful of and how we can navigate through it and get some tools to use to to strengthen ourselves. Enjoy this epic episode 

My Radio Interview on 99.3 with Buddhist Brian Gillespie

My new radio show on 99.3 I interview Buddhist Brian Gillespie and we talk about raising our consciousness through meditation: the how, why, and when. Listen-in to this very informative and mind-expanding discussion.

My 2 Week Social Media Experiment – ugh!

I took 2 weeks to spend more time on social media to monitor how it affected me. Here is what happened…

Ken & Dave QiGong, Energy, being OK

This episode we discuss fitting in and the stereotypical attitudes to navigate in changing times, and how to keep your vibe up.

How I Healed with Ayahuasca

There isn’t quite anything like the deep-dive of Ayahuasca into your soul. After years of self-discovery and hard work looking into why I was still struggling with my past and wasn’t happy, I finally embarked into the plant-based medicine of the Amazon and went down the rabbit hole. Here is what I found.

What does Masculinity have to do with happiness?

My Guest Dave Riley and I talk about masculinity and how to become more self-aware using the concept of presence and connection. Enjoy 


Simplify your life.

That concept just might be your biggest needle-mover in 2020.

In this complex world where it seems everyone in the last few years continues to be laser focused on getting rich, getting famous and outdoing the Jones’s, it’s almost impossible to simply keep up. However, there is something about these desires that the majority on that path is missing- and that is “Consciousness”.

Social media in recent years has manufactured a wave of unconscious consumers who are racing to buy things with money they don’t have. Going into debt in order to keep up with what’s cool, what gets you in the club, and gets you accepted is the new norm. But, is it satisfying and meaningful? Have you made the smartest investment with your hard-earned money? Is this real happiness?

Let’s sit for a moment and consider how far this runaway consumer society has gotten out of control.

First- debt: People feeling they need to buy things with borrowed money to fit in. The emotional cost of having that pressure is daunting, especially if one cannot afford to keep up with all the new styles and what’s cool. In any given moment, someone’s social media post that goes viral now has you in a rush to buy on-line or go out to the stores to purchase those shoes, that sweater, those pants, that car, that gadget, all just so you can be seen wearing or using it. Ultimately, it’s to feel accepted and be a part of the clan and pepper your ego. Reality is, we can shop our way to the poor-house trying to keep up. Emotionally, this destructive behaviour comes from feeling lack. More on that later.

Unconscious consumerism is a social sickness. And the more we feel divided, alone, unimportant and feeling spiritual lack, the more we look to the outside for things that we think will ultimately give us a sense of worthiness and acceptance. So, we need to feel good, but it’s a sweet and sour deal: the item of purchase temporarily makes us feel important, but the stressed induced from not being able to afford it keeps us up at night and in a state of angst.

Unfortunately, our collective human condition is the wantonness for “more”. We’re never satisfied, it’s never enough, that is until we become “conscious”.

Second: The toll on the planet from unconscious consumerism is huge. This disposable society throws away whatever was previously cherished that we were goo-goo over when it was purchased, now lays in a corner of the house, in a dump, in a river, on a beach or in the ocean.

Every product, every possible thing that is made and manufactured comes from resources buried in the ground or growing in the soil on this planet. We don’t get materials from space, not yet. We have to dig up the earth for the raw materials and the by-product of the manufacturing is toxic gas, toxic water, toxic air, toxic sludge, and clutter that ultimately ends up being digested through the air we breathe, the water we drink, the food we eat, and into our blood stream. Once there, it creates disease and early death.

A report by the Business Insider July 2019 article reports “One class of pollutant found in breast milk all over the world (but particularly in the US) is flame retardants, or chemicals designed to keep items from catching fire. The chemicals have been linked to thyroid cancerADHD, and decreases in children’s IQs. They can be transferred from mother to child.

The European Food Safety Authority has determined that breast-fed infants consume up to 20 to 30 times more PBDEs (a type of flame retardant used in building materials, electronics, furniture, and textiles) than the general population”.

What is alarming is that most people seem unaware that a baby in the womb already is being exposed to all these toxic chemicals through their mother’s blood, fluids and energetic field. Mother and baby are one, not separate. More on that later.

Climate change certainly does look real. Ask yourself is your new shoes or purse or phone that you really didn’t need has anything to do with it? We can all point to the petroleum companies and blame them for the state of affairs, but as long as people have this hunger to shop mindlessly to fill up closets and monster homes and garages of toys, we’ll experience more of the same and even worse to come. But, don’t get mad at the fossil fuel companies, they are just delivering the fuel to make these products that you keep purchasing. Enough people stop buying something, that business changes fast or goes out of business. If people want change, they also have to change what they buy. If ego is involved, unfortunately all bets are off, people with sensitive and unmanaged egos will satisfy their cravings regardless of the downside. The only way to supress the ego is “waking up” and becoming “conscious”. More on that later.

So why are we feeling “lack”. I personally believe it’s because we have lost control of our ability to own our own thoughts. Slowly over time, the people showing you TV commercials, broadcasting the news, magazine publishers, social media behemoths, have curated your brain into their sponge, to absorb and soak up all they have to offer by making you think you aren’t good enough until you have what they are selling. We lost our minds, and to some degree they now it in their hands.

Our ability to simply concentrate is below that of a goldfish as scientifically studied at 8 seconds. A goldfish can keep its concentration at 9 seconds. Why and how have we been outshined by a fish? Is it because we have been endlessly exposed to fathomless layers of media, technology and communications of all kinds at a lightening pace that is far beyond our ability to intuitively, wisely and responsibly digest and manage? Or is that that we are raising children who have no ability to sit still unless you give them a cell phone, iPad or electronic game. Or is it because our self-esteem and creativity have been beaten down so badly by the institutions of education, our parents, and “what we don’t have that they have” on social media?

Perhaps it all of the above. Regardless we are losing control, at least we are losing our ability to be well-grounded and sure-footed with who we are that gives us the clarity and the realization we are good enough as we are. As a matter of fact, we are far better than we think we are, and far more powerful than we can ever imagine.

The only thing in the way of realizing that is “you”. Yup. If you can find your way back to yourself, you will see the illusion that’s out there and being played in front of your very eyes. Not to say it isn’t “real”, it’s just that you’ll see and find your own significance and connection to everything, everyone in every place, and this one unified field of energy is far more important, and vast, and grand than a simple pair of new shiny shoes. Once you go there, those shoes, that car, that funky new umbrella will look feebly unimportant and petty to you.  That lustre of consuming wears off fast, and you will be very aware of it, and therefore you won’t succumb to the bait, that photo-shopped post, that advertisement, to rob you of your money and the earth’s resources and our home.

You stop being an unconscious consumer once you drink the Kool-Aid, the Kool-Aid of “conscious awareness”. Your ego purchases will sulk into the shadows and eventually become non-existent. You will “wake-up”. You will be thoughtful and caring in your purchases, even compassionate.

But how to find this “conscious awareness”? It all starts with your Heart. Yes, that energy source that is in the middle of your chest. Why your heart? I won’t give you the secret, but can only tell you that you will understand once you start focussing there.

To become aware of it takes practice and practice takes time, but it will be the best investment you ever made.

Once your heart is fully open you will experience a silent and profound knowingness of the intelligence within you that is connected to something much bigger and all around and deep within you. There is a melting-together, a bonding or even one could say a dissolving into “it”. That intelligence is what we call Source, God, Brahma,Yahwey or whatever your preference, but it exists, its powerful beyond anything, and its free!

To open your Heart is simply done by practicing sitting in stillness, in quiet, and focussing in on your Heart as an energy emitting and accepting love. Breathe in Love, and exhale Love. Breathe in the Love of those who love you, and breathe out Love for those you love. Continue doing that and at some time after some practice, you will begin to have some new thoughts, some new clarity, some new peacefulness within you.

Eventually with more practice you will slip into a state of complete nothingness. You will become no-one, no-thing, no-where, in-no-time. That is when you will enter the quantum field where you are every-one, every-thing, every-where in every-time. This is the space of endless possibility. This is where you manifest your life. This is the consciousness that is needed to change the problems of the world that were created unconsciously.

Once you go there, you want this more than all the tea in China, or all the shoes, or all the cars, or all the…

If you want a short cut to get there, read here


Why I Moved to a Small Town with Crappy Internet

It’s almost been a year since I did my last Ayahuasca Ceremony. There, in Costa Rica at Rythmia Life Advancement Centre, I met God. Yes I did. I also watched angels being born and became one of them. I stood at the gate of a dimension that I feared I would dissolve into and never return. My experiences with Ayahuasca this time around was far more profound and beyond anything I could have imagined. These events blew me into a million pieces of confetti shot into the air only to try and reformat myself and reorganize a new me before I hit the ground and die at the end of this lifecycle. Almost a year later from floating in the middle of the universe feeling and seeing the unimaginable love and bliss emanating from it, I am still putting myself together and experiencing the constant drip of new realizations and aha-moments endlessly revealing themselves and making my evolution unceasingly expanding in personal growth.

The two biggest questions mankind has struggled with and have been at the forefront of human existence and almost every philosophical discussion are:  

1-“Who am I?”

2-“why am I here?”

These two questions were profoundly answered during an Ayahuasca ceremony where I left my physical body and went into the vacuum of space, through the quantum field to the centre of the universe where I saw God, not as a physical entity, but as an energy source emitting from what I can only describe as the most beautiful vision I have ever seen. This is where I witnessed physical beings transformed into angels by “getting their wings”; being encased in pure light and then shooting up into the cosmos. I was able to feel a depth of love I have never experienced in my lifetime; it was so overwhelming it brought my physical body on earth, laying on a mattress during ceremony, to uncontrollable sobs of tears as my friends later told me.  

The most incredible experience of all during ceremony was the awakening of my consciousness that we are all here on the “earth-school” to learn that our very existence is eternal, that we are all here to guide and help each other wake-up and remember we are all star children from the cosmos and are returning home. Right then and there I found my purpose, everyone’s purpose, and that and is to become enlightened beings and help others find their way. If you don’t believe me now, in time, perhaps another lifetime, you will too understand that. Life is not about collecting “stuff” or cars, or houses, or how much money or “likes” we accumulate.

2020 is here. It’s a significant year for change. Everything is already changing, and fast. As we watch the once stoic and revered institutions of science, politics, education, Wall Street, and religion all start to crumble, we go about daily life seemingly unconcerned with what will replace them. I have always questioned authority for some reason going back as early as childhood, and I always knew something was up behind all those rules and rituals and slick sales pitches for what’s good for us and why we must fall-in line. But, this is a different time coming. Things are going to show up that we had no foresight in seeing, no knowledge of either its existence or its making, or that it is coming whether you like it or not. 

As we become more absorbed in technology and our gadgets, we drift farther from our centre, our connectedness to ourselves and the place where we come from. One could say that the more disconnected we are from this source, the unhappier and unhealthier we are. I agree and have been there myself. For years, I have been lost in the illusion that the name of the game is “he who has the most toys win” and “you” and “I” are separate, not connected and it doesn’t matter to me what happens to you, and vice versa. Social media is proving this theory in spades- we’re so consumed with what others look like and the fun we’re not having, in the desire to get people to “like” us, we’re willing to lose ourselves and step on anyone to get it to feel that temporary validation and importance. 

Recently, on a trip back to the city, as I walked by a waiting room with thirty-two people in it, all but one was staring into their time-machines. I use this analogy because to me our phones suck away time and our attention to life in the here-and-now. Just watch people’s behaviour when they pull out their phones, it’s like they are being pulled into their phones, like smoke being sucked into a vacuum cleaner. This is especially noticeable with young children, it’s like they are emptying their heads into this hand-held blackhole. From my vantage point, looking at that room full of people gazing into their tiny screens, I could plainly see the madness in it. I haven’t been witness to this since I moved out to the country. Where I live, you don’t see mass digital zombies, just a handful spattered here and there at a coffee shop at best. Where I live, people talk. They laugh together. They commune.

I can attribute my Ayahuasca experience to waking-me-up and becoming increasingly aware of my limited time here on this beautiful blue dot floating in the eternal cosmos. Maybe I put a premium on time and my attention span and filter out the mundane and the unimportant and realize the eternal “hear-and-now”, -is “here” and “now”, it’s not tomorrow or some other time. 

Yes, I woke-up. 

Like the many people that are becoming increasingly aware that the city life is just too fragmented, congested and chaotic, I started looking for an exit out of the madness. I could say the smell, the angry drivers, the smiles wiped off people’s faces walking down the streets are physical signs of the discomfort and disharmony of city life, but for me it’s more than just that which had turned my sights to moving out into the country. 

What did it for me is that I started to feel the city-life was drawing the life-force out of me. I started to feel the heaviness of the city and chaos. I started to experience a dull-ness, a type of haze wash over me, a feeling of accepting less and sucking it up and trying to be OK with my plight as if it was a life-sentence and I had to let the clock run out. I didn’t feel free and alive anymore. I knew the air I breathed was dirty, that I couldn’t escape the noise, that there were no places to swim anymore other than a chlorine filled pool. I knew in case of a big and more serious public emergency I could not escape the chaos and traffic to get onto higher ground. Yes, these things, and more kept me up at night.

Then I just did it. I moved.

Coincidentally set up by the universe, while I was away in Costa Rica I received a phone call informing me that I could help create and take a small ownership in building a retreat centre in a place called Prince Edward County. It seemed the stars aligned as I just had a complete emotional and phycological upgrade from my Ayahuasca experiences, and that I was regretfully coming back home to the city where I already was disenchanted and wanting to leave, plus my business and marital life wasn’t doing so well.

It just seemed like a ripe opportunity to pack and head to the country to start a new life in a small town. Prince Edward County Canada is like a small island of 1000 square kilometers, sticking out in Lake Ontario. It’s mainly all farmland with an increasing population of vineyards, wineries, breweries, restaurants and shops.  In the summertime its bustling with tourists and is one of the most magical places I have been to. So, I said “yes! I’ll help build the retreat.”

Soon after I arrived, I quickly learned that the retreat centre wasn’t what I was hoping for, so I left and grabbed an apartment and haven’t looked back. My business is thriving here as I do contracting and light construction, mostly beautifying spaces and fixing up homes. There is plenty of business for me, and lots and lots of opportunities here for anyone as the population and tourism grows. It will be a while before it takes on anything I would consider “big city” problems, so I am quite content pitching my tent here for a long while. 

I see more and more people coming here and setting up shop, bringing their talents and gifts and starting their own business and leaving the corporate world behind. Here, dinner with friends, a hike, a swim, a motorcycle ride in the country is my bliss. There is something special about seeing cows in a field, vegetable stands on the side roads, blue skies and people laughing and loving their lives. 

Yes, I have arrived.


I’ll be writing more about living the life in the country. Stay tuned.

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